A friend came over to drink and watch Gilmore girls. She stayed the night and slept in the same bed as me. I can't sleep. The last time I shared a bed with someone was the breakup a year ago. I'm pretty pathetic but this is bringing back a bunch of memories. Just got to survive until morning
i had a moment today while watching a whiny shitlord complain about the injustice of new sci-fi media having more female leads, i suddenly felt the strangest sense of déjà vu. i couldn’t pintpoint it at first but then out of nowhere, it fucking dawned on me
and the crappy thing is I still want to keep reading. I want there to be no more misunderstandings and for them both to end up happy. I want romance and to see a happy ending. I want a happy ending. I shoudl just give up fucking hope for that and deal with reality instead. Stop focusing on stability and the ending. Instead focus on the momentary happy.
Its 4 in the afternoon but I finally took my medication! and I think I might be awake for more than a couple of hours!!! Its one of those kind of days: I’ll take any victory I can get and just keep my brain occupied with happy thoughts so it stops tearing itself apart.
